Space Spiral

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Sometimes I don’t really know what I’m doing.

I feel like I’m just wandering through space.

Hoping that something will come by and give me a clue as to which direction I should go.

Hoping to find a safe haven from the vast emptiness outside.

Zentangle

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I feel like my life is one big zentangle right now. No idea where it’s going or what it will end up becoming. It may be pretty, or it may end up a tangled mess of lines and smudges.

2014 was about defeating my depression. I definitely took a huge chunk out of it, and I’ve had one of my calmest winters yet.

Part of me (okay most of me) hopes that 2015 will be the year I find my “niche”. The one thing that I care about enough to do every day until I’m good enough to “be someone” at that thing.

The more likely reality is that 2015 will be a year of self exploration and development of my daily routine, so that when I do discover my niche, I have a good, solid foundation on which to build my skills and experience in that area.

Wishing you a fabulous new year!

Go With The Flow

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I have a natural ebb and flow of productivity. I strive for and desire consistency, but my natural process seems to come in “spurts” of productivity, followed by more relaxed periods of just getting the basics of my routine out of the way.

I often find myself comparing my productive days with my basic days and can feel like I’m “failing” on my more relaxed days. I’m building a foundation of accepting that flow and trying to work with it rather than against it, realizing that by getting up each day and continuing to chip away, no matter how passionately or tenderly I do so, I am making progress.

It’s kind of like this doodle! One big waterfall goes into a pond, which has lots of little waterfalls that combine again to create larger waterfalls later on down the cascade. It’s the diversity of big falls and little falls that make the whole thing so beautiful!